The prescription for my pharmaceutical drugs had lapsed and I was waiting for a requisition from my rheumatologist for a renewal.
Thinking ahead, I thought to prevent a potential 'problem'. Sometimes the pharmacy is out of my drugs and I have to wait until they come in. So I called them, saying that a prescription renewal would be coming in in a few days and I was just checking to make sure they would have all my drugs in stock. Checking on the drugs in question, they assured me that yes they had them all on hand.
But when I went in a few days later to pick up my prescription they informed that the Leflunamide was back ordered and they only had enough to partially fill my prescription.
I was annoyed, and grumbled because I had specifically called ahead to give them time to reorder if necessary.
Yesterday, I had an appointment with my rheumatologist and she took one look at my liver test levels and expressed her concern. The first thing she advised me to do to try to bring the levels back into a normal range was to make sure the possible cause, the drug Leflunamide, was not dosed at more than 10mg a day. I went home, checked my dosage and yes.. the bottle instructions were 20mg- taken every day once a day!
With now needing to cut them in half -- my partially filled prescription was exactly right.
I was humbled to think how all along God had been working on my behalf to make sure I didn't have to pay for what I would not need... even when I was trying my best to work it according to what I thought was needed.
It was a good reminder to me to not only let God have control of my life -- but to recognize that the things that make me want to grumble could well be a 'gift' from God designed to give me His best.
Why is it so hard for us to believe that God really IS in the details of our life, that He really DOES care for us as He says in His word?
"Casting ALL your care upon Him, for He cares for you !"
I Peter 5:7